Sleepless

Where have you gone?
Why did you disappear without a word?
When did my nights become so lonely?
Everything I ever wanted was to be with you but the closer I got, the more distance you put between us.
I just can't stop dreaming about you, hearing your voice in my deepest nightmares.
Is it that difficult for everyone to stay with the one you love? Because, yes, I love him. Once, I loved him more than I loved myself and was it worth it? Did he even care?
I'm insane, creepy and hopeless but when he smiles everything becomes so easy, so normal, like I finally found the right place to be after I'd been lost for a long time.
I'd rather live in his eyes. I'd rather hide in the warmth of his chest. I would choose if I could to spend the rest of my days by his side. But am I jeopardizing myself by choosing him?
I wish I could have answers.
I wish I could sleep.